Sep 4

lil*j ~ Damn That Hurts…In a Good Way

Me and my big mouth.  I was discussing the current fashion trend with my brother-in-law about how the shirts all seem like maternity shirts and make me look fat and that doesn’t help because I am fat.  And of course, D just happened to be walking by at that exact moment.  Too late, it slipped out.  He said “oh really?”  And I couldn’t very well take it back without looking foolish in front of the brother in law.  So I immediately saw the strop in my future.  Ugh!  And its been so long since I’ve had any real pain to prepare me for such a difficult task.  Does it help my case any to say that someone at work asked me when the baby is due?  Yeah, isn’t that great.  Love that.  That really makes me feel special and so attractive.  Fucking F word.  And by F I mean Fat.  Gets me in trouble a lot.  So I was dreading Wednesday evening for that would be the first time in several weeks D and I would be alone.  Dread fill me for two reasons.  One, the Fucking F word and two, its been a long time and I always get nervous that my pain tolerance is for shit.

1. lil*j kneelsand waits for her evening with DaddySo I got home and got naked.  I was waiting to be dragged into the living room and beaten.  D likes to get the punishment stuff out of the way early on usually.  I asked if he wanted me to get dinner going and he said yes.  My clothes were in the living room.  So I went to put them on.  My clothes were fishnet stockings, garter belt and black/red pumps.  Very sexy dinner attire.  I put them on and got dinner ready.  Dinner tonight was simple.  A chicken salad with left over chicken already waiting to be cut up.  And lots of veggies from the garden.  So it was ready in no time at all.  We sat down and ate and caught up on the happenings.

After dinner, I was enjoying the warmth from the wine when D started pulling on my nipples.  And it hurt of course.  But my damn nipples told him how much they liked it by getting rock hard.  Then he really started grabbing my whole breast and twisting and OMG that really hurt.  He kept doing it and then asked if that was punishment enough.  Why did I think I was fat, etc, etc.  Making me scream out “I’m not fat!”  over and over until he felt I had enough.  I’m not sure it was better than the strop.  I’d say about even.

2. Pulled to the floor, hands still on back of headHe then told me to go kneel on the floor in the bedroom.  He started kicking me and punching me in the back.  He brought out the lollipop paddle (damn that hurts) and the bamboo skewer thing.  He used them both all over my back.  Then the cane and a good caning.  Then a new toy….a butterfly knife.  And then the tears came.  God how I hate that I tend to cry a lot when getting dominated.  It sounds so weak and pathetic to my ears.  I didn’t realize how I sounded until I watched myself on video getting tortured.  I hate that I am a cryer.  I wish I could get pissed like Camille or all sexy about getting the shit beat out of me or getting scared.  But no, its tears.  Tears are really great too when your on all fours and your head is down.  Really good after overcoming an upper respiratory infection (probably walking pneumonia).  Feels really good to have your whole head filled up.  So I tried really hard to hold back the tears as much as I could while D tortured me with the knife.  Then there was a ass plug and something hard and ribbed inside of me.  I had to play with my pussy while he filled both of my holes with objects I couldn’t see.

4. lil*j gets pulled up to kneeling from the floorHe grabbed me by the hair and pulled me over to his chair.  He had me kneeling with my upper body in the seat of the chair.  I felt the lube dripping over my ass right before he told me he decided he would rape my ass.  Then he was pushing into my asshole.  When he entered, it wasn’t the usual burn type pain.  It was like he was sliding into my pussy I was so ready for him.  It felt so good having him in my ass and I wanted to cum so badly.  It didn’t start to hurt like it normally does as he pounded away.  And I thought this if it felt like this every time I understand why women love this.  I mean, I love getting fucked in the ass, but it does hurt.  Not this time.  I loved every minute of it.  I wanted to cum and I was begging for it.  D let me cum twice before ramming harder and harder before filling me up with his cum.  My legs were shaking.  My whole body was shaking before and after cumming so hard both times.  D told me to lay on my back.  My legs were shaking and quivering.  So I asked if I could put them down.  D said yes and I was so grateful.

9. Used, exhausted and recovering on the floorAhhhh blessed subspace how I missed you so.  I laid there a bit recovering as D touched me all over with the bottoms of his feet.  He then told me to grab pillows and meet him in the living room.  I knelt at his feet while he sat on the couch.  We watched the RNC while I rubbed his feet, then legs then back.  He then told me to get some lotion.  He rubbed my back and shoulders, and then my feet.  And I was in a special kind of heaven.  An ass fucking, beating and a foot rub.  Does it really get any better than that?  Not in my world.
After I was pretty much goo, we headed back to the bedroom.  I was drifting off in no time. And big surprise, slept the best I’ve slept in weeks.  I missed you endorphins.  I kept saying over and over what a good ass fucking that was.  D just kept smiling and chuckling.

The next morning, I was still thinking about it and woke up with my pussy hungry for cock.  The alarm went off and I shut it off and rolled over next to D.  I think that the first words out of my mouth was “what a good ass fucking that was”.  D asked me why it was so good and I told him because it normally hurts and it didn’t at all.  I enjoyed every minute of it.  His cock got hard and he told me so.  So I climbed on top of him and slipped his hard cock inside of me.  It was my turn to wake us both up.  I was asking to cum in no time and D let me.  I was pumping and writhing and cumming before I was fully awake.  The thoughts of his cock in my ass the night before spurring me on to a greater orgasm.  Then it was his turn.  I increased my speed and changed the angle of my hips to the way he likes.  Then he was cumming and shooting warm thickness into me once again.  A few minutes to catch our breaths then I was up and hurrying to get ready so I wouldn’t be late for work.

Life is good.

Namaste,
j

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Sep 4

Nawa*G ~ Discipline, Dildos and Deep Penetration

Last night was the first night alone in a long time…We are glad to be to the fall schedule where we have one night a week and every other weekend to connect. We love the kids and having them here but we are more relaxed and patient with regular sessions. It is an amazing “drug” this lifestyle!

8. On all fours waiting for moreMy little girl got home, stripped and asked if she could start dinner. It was obvious she was scared of being disciplined. She had made the “I’m fat” comment to my brother. A big no no and I made sure she knew I heard it and was not happy with it. That was Sunday and she has been suffering with the thought ever since. I firmly believe that your voice dictates your thoughts. I love the way she looks, she is not fat, she works out hard and has a hard body. For her to say she is fat is totally unacceptable behavior and she knows it. She got dinner together while I showered after a long day of work. Dinner was great then as we finished wine I began to pinch her nipples then I squeezed her entire breast…Firm and tight but it hurt. Tears were welling and I knew I had a much better discipline tool than the strop and decided discipline was going to happen right then and there! I asked her why she said it then made her change her verbal pattern to “I am not fat” while squeezing. She got the point and we will see if she has finally learned her lesson. Her self image is VERY important to me.

6. lil*j ordered to finger her wet pussyI then had her go to the bedroom and kneel. I honestly had no scene set up. I was going to go to the barn, maybe outside but decided when I got to the room it would be there. I did know she needed a challenging scene. What is more challenging than an ass beating, hair pulling, caning and the knife! She got hit, skewered, caned and then the knife play. Humiliating as it was I made her play with herself, getting all wet while I inspected her and spreading her ass and pussy wide open. As she continued to finger herself I used the cane on her as well. She was very wet and feeling very submissive with a bit of fear as I pushed and kicked at her. All creating that domination that puts her in a very special place on the floor on all fours and submissive!

7. Daddy fills ass with a plug and pussy with a glass dildoI then got out the lube and in the spur of the moment the butt plug and pressed it into her ass. I also got our our new glass dildo from Shibaricon. That was twisted and rammed into her pussy….in and out fucking her to the verge of orgasm. Her pussy was wet and the sound of the glass and the wet pussy was very exciting. 3. lil*j gets hair pulledI pressed it in and left it there while she held as still as she could. I removed both and noticed her gaping asshole, almost begging me to take it. So I grabbed her hair and roughly put her chest on the chair, pulled my silk bottoms off, lined up behind her, lubed my cock and entered her ass. It was not a gentle ass fucking, it was hard, deep and varying rates of speed. Much of the time my balls slapping against her pussy/clit. She was moaning and begging to cum. She was yelling, “Yes Daddy, please fuck my ass harder, Pleassssseee fuck my ass!”  She then began to beg softly, “May I cum” which was quickly denied. Her begging got louder and I told her to be more convincing. The screams begging to cum were louder and more sincere. Her entire body was quivering so in addition to her words her body was begging to cum as well. I finally let her cum and she had the most satisfying orgasm from an ass fuck she has ever had. I enjoyed it as came very hard.

After clean up I wanted her at my feet for the evening. In a change of pace I told her to clean up and bring pillows to sit on in the living room. she came out and sat at my feet, at her place. She would lay on the floor by me, then rub my feet then I laid on the floor, and she massaged my back. She then took time to fix my glasses and she got a reward of a ginger lotion back massage. We watched a bit more TV before retiring to bed. All she kept saying was that was the “Best Assfucking I have ever Had!” We eventually drifted off to sleep to wake in the morning to her again saying and reminiscing on how great the ass fucking was. She was so horny she got up on top of me and wanted to cum immediately which she was allowed to do. She then shifted gears to make me cum and let Daddy use her body for pleasure till she was filled with my cum!

What a wonderful night.

Peace, G

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Sep 1

Nawa*G ~ Controlling My Little Girl

4. Begging to cum, but Daddy has other ideasSo Sunday morning and it has been a very long time since I have taken control of my little girl, either emotionally or physically. She was slow to wake this morning when I told her to strip. We did have my kids in the house this weekend so have to be prepared for a surprise visit during the night. After she stripped and she was under the covers, I told her to play with herself. It got her excited and more awake. A nice slow way to get the body going in the morning. When she told me she was sufficiently wet, I told her to put on her robe, go make coffee, get it started then return.

3. She needs to cum, but is not allowedWhen she came back she found some pillows piled on the floor right beside the bed waiting for her. On top of the pillows was her Hitachi, looking very lonely. She smiled and made a comment like, “hmmmm…What’s this?” I told her she was to straddle the huge pile of pillows. The top pillow was harder to push the Hitachi into her better. She straddled and I told her to turn on the Hitachi. As the wonderful toy  buzzed away, I nonchalantly walked to the bathroom as I had to go. I listened and smile as she moaned, groaned and fought her orgasm the entire time.

2. While kneeling on her Hitqachi she is told to play with her nipples.I came back and she asked in a hushed voice if she could cum. I told her now. Her face was contorted as she so needed that orgasm and I think thought I would say yes. I crawled into the bed to watch the show. She was struggling to maintain control of her body’s desire to orgasm but was right there if not just over the edge. I asked her if she thought the coffee was done yet…She said very quickly…”oh yes” when I told her she better be sure as if there is not two cups ready and she left now she would be punished. she decided to wait on the torturous Hitachi another two minutes to be sure and went off to get the coffee. She returned to the room with two cups of wonderful, organic, piping hot coffee. Hers went on the bed stand and she was to get back on the pillow tower of torture. I drank some coffee, allowed her to do so then had her hold my cup while she rode the Hitachi, still needing to cum, while I checked email. I remember making a comment about all the email and how long it takes me to weed through it. This of course under present conditions was not a good thing for her as she was still not allowed to cum. I would take sips of coffee, give it back to her to hold as she knelt on her pillows and Hitachi beside the bed begging to cum.

7. A front on shot showing the sideways fuck, Hitachi and pleasure in her faceI finally was done and asked her, wit ha sarcastic tone if she wanted to cum. All she could do was shake her head yes, she was speechless. I told her to turn the Hitachi off, and bring it with her into the bed. She crawled in and I laid perpendicular to her and pressed my cock into her hot, wet pussy. I then told her to start using the Hitachi again. She was in heaven…and hell. Begging and asking to cum over and over. Worked up to an orgasmic bliss that needed to be released. I asked her if she was sure and finally let her explode. It was long, she shook, her mouth was gaped open and she came and came and came.

8. Ummmmmmm....Service, Coffee, Daddy's Cock, and HitachiI then began to play with her swollen and very sensitive clit. I was pressing and lightly touching it as I tweaked her nipples. She was so sensitive to touch as I pounded her pussy fucking her hard. I also began to play with her energy and allowed her another powerful energy orgasm. Again she shook and shuttered as she came another two or three times. She was very much enjoying the energy play, the control and the pleasure I was giving her. I then began to pound her harder till I blew a huge load into that waiting and wanting pussy.  It felt really good.

A great way to start the day! We cuddled and watched some news till the kids got up, breakfast and the day was off and running. She still is amazed and enjoys my little surprises and creative ways to control and use her. What a great synergy!

Peace, G

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Aug 30

Nawa*G ~ Pics From The Past #7

Category: Pics from the Past

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Since we have kids all week and this weekend we will have little to report on our BDSM adventures. As most of you who read this know they come first. But we also enjoy keeping new and fresh material on our blog. We always enjoy going back through the old picture archives. It reminds us of a time that was turbulent on one end but also refreshing and loving as we had found each other. Obviously love won out there *S

Aug05-1Aug05-2So here is a second installment of Pics from the Past for this week. These shots are from just over a year into our relationship. These were taken in my old place where she was tied in a simple chest harness and them arms bound behind her to a dowel bar for more and tighter restraint. The blindfold just added to the sense of bondage and isolation. she was of course touched, slapped, kissed and loved on while there all bound in my ropes. She very much enjoyed the tie. After the sitting she was moved into a hogtie position, pictured above center, which she loves the best and allowed to float away. I used a great deal of rope and tied her hands to the waist harness so when her hands moved it pressed and excited her clit as well! It is fun to go back and see these old pics for many reasons. They are very sexy for one! But what is interesting is that it is very early in our rope bondage journey. All of this learned online, mostly at Jimi Tatu’s Ds-arts website.  The ties are pretty decent and of course my little girl model is always delightful to look at in rope! We hope you enjoy them as much as we do! As awlways, click on the thumbnail to see a larger and more detailed picture!

Peace, G


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Aug 29

Nawa*G ~ Rope - The Most Versatile Toy

This post was origionally done for Kinky Sex links blog and then alt.com. We thought it might be good to post here on our blog as well. So here you go, our thoughts on rope! For those of you who know us personally, you know we are very big into rope play. We run a local rope bondage group as well as teach and perform Shibari inspired Rope bondage at events whenever we can. So we thought an Article on rope would be appropriate. Rope is one of the best toys you can have in your bag. There are so many things you can do with rope, and with practice, can be done quickly. Although we prefer the slow sensual type of tying, so much more intimate. Included in this post is a variety of different ties we have done

from a video shot in our Barn

from a video shot in our Barn

So let us go through some of the advantages of rope and some of the many things you can do with some rope. First off rope travels very well. It is light, packs into a small space, goes through Airport security easily. So what can you do….Well we all know you can tie your partner to a bed. But what about tying the two of you together then exploring each other. Rope can be tied loose or tight to bind and make someone immobile. You can tie someones legs open for inspection, humiliation or sex. Hogties can immobilize any submissive in a very effective way. Hands tied behind the back allows the top to have unfettered access to the sub’s body without the slightest interference. You can tie someone to an upright pole and with proper instruction, people can be suspended in rope.

Windmill suspension with hooks.

Windmill suspension with hooks.

Rope is great for sensation play. Running different ropes, hemp. jute, silk or cotton, across the skin creates goosebumps and wonderful sensations on the body. Take a piece of rope
and go around the waist twice and tun through the legs. You can tie and overhand knot at the clit for teasing or tie it around a males cock. If you are using hemp. Run your hands aross the rope and it creates vibration, or better yet, put a vibrator in it…The entire length of the rope vibrates, a great way to tease and play.

lil*j tied to a Tree

lil*j tied to a Tree

Ropes can be used to make handcuffs or leg binders. Run the rope through a PVC pipe and you have a wonderful spreader bar! If you take a 30′ piece of rope, double it over a few times, it makes a VERY effective flogger. Using a single length of rope creates an adequate singletail as well. So next time you have limited space pack some rope. It has as many uses as your imagination can come up with. Have fun, be safe and enjoy…

Nawa*G & lil*j

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Aug 28

Nawa*G Pics from the Past #6

Category: Pics from the Past

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Here is a set of pictures taken just after our First year anniversary. These were taken in her old apartment right on her bed with the old digital camera. PICT0235-blurThey came our really well I thought. It is a bit of a departure from our typical bondage and BDSM pics we enjoy taking so much. These certainly lean more towards the”Glamour” shots you might see in the softer magazines like maxim or playboy. The babydoll top she is wearing is from Victoria’s Secret and has a very Egyptian Theme to it. It was so pretty I had to buy it for her and give it to her as a “just because” gift. The one in the center top is her posing in her submissive kneel down pose.PICT0236-blur I then had her pose, above left on the bed kneeling and got the shot of her crawling forward. While it got a bit too much light, I love the way the Babydoll rides and lows up showing the very sexy curves of her ass. The pic to the right is when she laid back a big smile on her face feeling very submissive and wanting to be used. This pic shows the top flowing and shows a hit of her tits and almost shows her shaved pussy. Very sexy and very inviting! Of course she got a long slow fucking after the pics *S how could i resist that! As always you can click on the thumbnail in the blog to get a bigger more full size picture! Enjoy!

Peace, G



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Aug 27

Nawa*G & lil*j ~ Friends in High Places

Category: Announcement

Lochai @ Hogtied audition 1We were very excited to get some great news. One of our dear rope friends and family members is moving to San Francisco from south Florida. Who, What and Why do you ask….Well our good friend Lochai has been diving the enviable job of Director of Hogtied.com, Kink.com’s flagship website. Wow what and honor for him. We could not be happier. He is a perfect choice for that position. You remember Lochai is a world renowned fetish photographer. He was kind enough to take our Shibaricon Wedding photos as a gift! I remember walking up to him at our first Kinky Kollege asking him to teach me his inversion harness. He smiled and said “sure”…well then he looked at lil*j and got a huge devious smile and said “absolutely!” And that is how we met!

Lochai @ Hogtied audition 2Now to say we are proud of our friend and happy for him does not mean we are not jealous! *L He now has the “arduous” task of taking sexy, cute, hot bondage models, tying them up, beating them, causing them pain and of course immense pleasure at his whim. All on tape..Day after Day after day! Poor guy! Sounds like a great job to me….Lochai…Lochai…*raising my hand….I know many have already offered but if you need help…you know even holding your ropes, holding the models, massages from lil*j ANYTHING….let us know…We WILL be there for you!!!!! *S

We have been working on getting him to do a weekend conference for our rope group this fall. He may be a bit busy now, but we will keep trying to find a weekend!

His photography website is here at Kiranawa.com

The Kink.com announcement was reposted HERE on his blog.

Congrats our friend!!!!

Peace & Namaste

G & j

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Aug 27

Nawa*G ~ We are Honored

Category: Announcement

We are honored to be asked to be “charter” bloggers of a flagship website called Kinky Sex Link. She calls it a Haven for BDSM Bloggers! It is a website started by a wonderful woman named Mystress Lady Evyl. We met her at Fetlife but I think she had been following her blog before that. She asked us to be part of this new website she is putting together for kinky bloggers and will be, once done, a depository or sorts for kinky bloggers and kinky links to all kinds of things. When she asked us if we would be interested be were honored that she thought our blog ranked up there with some other very good sex/kink bloggers she had already.

We typically re-post some of our blogs from here but head over there and vote for us in the contest and read some of the other blog posts. You will find some other very good things to read!

Peace, G

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Aug 22

Nawa*G ~ Munching away

Last night we had no kids and decided we would attend the local munch. now local for us is 40 min away, but when we get the chance we try to attend to support our friends who run the much. We also invited Tee and another friend Audrey anne to join us there. lil*j got home from work as I had just finished showering from a long days work around the house and was working on a Rope Group project. She entered the bedroom nude like a good little slut and was ordered to lay at my feet, which she gleefully did.

1. Little gile showing off her new top Daddy bought herWhen I was done with my work I pulled her up over my lap and gave her a nice, long, sensual spanking. Her ass reddened up with the impacts then I would rub it gently. After a while of this I put her on her back and began a relentless assault on her pussy with my mouth and tongue. She had not been feeling well all week and the medication killed her libido to the point the night before the Hitachi could not make her cum. but alas, she could not resist my tongue and she was on the verge of cumming, so I let her after about 10 minutes of orgasm control then kept her cumming. I would vary the licks, sucks, location and pressure keeping her squirming and screaming and wanting more till she was totally sensitive. I then plunged my cock deep into her till we both came again.

2. Ll*j lifts her skirt for DaddyWe recovered, got up and got ready to go. I had dressed her in a short skirt, with her new “scuntchy” top we found at this awesome local flea market. It is so little girl. I took a pic of her then out in the middle of the front yard made her pull up her skirt to reveal her pussy for me th take a picture as well. We traveled to the munch and had a nice dinner with kinky friends and even better conversation. We met some new people and got the, “ohhhhhh…YOU are THAT G & j…I read your blog all the time.” It is at that point lil*j blushes as they have seen every bit of her! But the compliments on the blog that always seem to follow are wonderful. When we were ready to leave it was already almost 10 PM and we needed to get home.

We got back to the house around 10:30 pm or so and I ordered j to kneel by my chair while I got the rope I was processing for orders down from the drying racks. I got in and sat in my chair. I wanted to challenge her tonight. She was tired from her long day, ready for bed and not felling well so I knew anything would be tough. I wanted to use her and push to see if she would break. I told her to rub mu feet as she knelt on the floor. Then my calves. Then kneel up and run both thighs. I then ordered her to put my cock in her mouth while she did it. she obeyed with out question. After a few minutes she leaned back for a second to inform me this was a difficult position to maintain. But immediately went back to her challenge without another word. I told her to stop rubbing by keep sucking and that relieved the pressure.

I then took her by the hair, stood up, placed her face down on the chair and entered her wet pussy from behind. for the 20th time this month, I fucked her hard as she moaned a bit each time I slammed into her and pressed her into the chair. This was about using my girl, my pussy and my property for my pleasure. She was not going to cum tonight as it was all about service and pleasing me. I eventually shot my load into her and told her to go wash her face and clean up for bed. She returned and I put her on my lap for a few minutes for lap time and told her how wonderful she was, how great she performed and how proud I was of her not saying a word about being used tonight. I felt it was the highest level of service, not feeling well, tired and still there as a sex slave, to be used, without question at my whim. I love her obedience and servitude almost as much as I love her. It is an endearing quality!

Peace, G

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Aug 22

lil*j ~ To Serve When It Is Not Easy

Its easy to submit when you want to. Its easy when every fiber of your being demands that you do so. Its easy when it turns you on. Its natural when your body responds to the demands. What happens when you don’t want to serve? What about if your sick or just not in the mood? Well, that all depends on what your Master/Owner/Daddy wants…..

Your not supposed to be sick in the summer, right? Would someone please tell my body that! I thought I had allergies, but now I’m beginning to think its a cold or something else. Thank God for cold syrup with codine in it. But there is always a trade off to medications. Some side effect always exists that catches up with you sooner or later. So besides being exhausted from my body trying to fight off whatever virus has invaded my system, I’m trying to shake the codine from my pores. So I’ve been tired and hacking like I have tuberculosis. I really haven’t been in the mood to be a sexy submissive little girl. But that doesn’t negate the fact that I’ve willingly given my body to my D. I trust him to do what is best and to take care of me. So I let him know how I’m feeling and we go from there.

I got home from work and stripped naked after walking in the door. I headed back to the bedroom. D was happy to see his nipples back home. He was naked on the bed working on the computer. He told me to lay down at his feet. There were naughty magazines to look at. He wanted to keep my nipples hard while he worked so I was to look at them and enjoy all the pretty girls.

When he finished his work, he pulled me up over his lap for a wonderful spanking. When I was wonderfully wet and gooey, he told me to lay on my back. He began the assault on my clit. You see codine has a negative effect on my ability to orgasm. Shocking, I know! But its like some of the nerve endings are deadened down there or something. I get close but just can’t get over the edge. Well, D was determined I think. He went to work on teasing my clit, sucking it, licking it until I was on the edge. He told me to cum. It took a little concentration, but I was able to cum and boy did I scream. My clit was so sensitive after I came that I was making little jerks with my body with each flick of his tongue. The he got on top of me and sunk his cock into my dripping cunt. Oh, it felt so good. He pumped in and out until he was filling me up with is thick cum.

We recovered and then we had to get ready. Tonight we were going to the local munch. I got ready and we headed out. We arrived and greeted some friends and made some new ones. It was an enjoyable evening. I was feeling ok but after awhile the smoke got to me and my coughing got worse. It was about that time when it was time to go anyway. Others were going to another bar, but we needed to get home. I was suddenly really tired again. The long drive home was a blur and all I could think of was getting home and crawling into bed. I did ask if I could take off my clothes when we were about 5 minutes from home. D said yes, so I stripped. It felt nice to be naked with the cool night air against my skin. When we got home, I headed inside. D told me to kneel at his chair.

I went in and knelt, trying not to fall asleep as I did so. He came in and took off his pants. He sat in the chair. He wanted me to rub his feet. I knew that he knew I was tired and not feeling well. But he wanted me to serve anyway. It wasn’t much to ask for really. So I stroked his feet with my fingertips and then he said his legs too. So I carried on, even though I wanted to crawl into bed, I ignored my body’s needs to give pleasure and serve my D. He then told me to put his cock in my mouth while I stroked his legs. It was very difficult to hold that position for very long due to the balance issue. It was a lot of strain on my lower back and my legs were having difficulty holding that position. I took my mouth off his cock long enough to tell him that, then my mouth went back to his cock. I continued for a few minutes until he told me to keep my mouth on his cock, but stop the stroking of his legs. He asked if that was easier and I said yes. I held my mouth over his cock while he pumped into it. He didn’t say suck his cock, just put it in my mouth and it was very hard to just hold my mouth there and not use it or my tongue to work on his cock. He then got up and directed me to lay over the chair while my knees were still on the floor. He got down and fucked me from behind. I was so tired. I couldn’t do anything but just be a body for him to fuck.

I think I was also a bit in subspace as well as physically exhausted. I like being used. Even when I’m sick. I don’t enjoy it as much physically, but mentally I know I am being a good girl and serving my D. He came inside me then pulled me into his lap to tell me what a good girl I was. He was proud of me serving him despite not feeling well. He let me get ready for bed and curl up next to him. After a bit, he spooned me and then I could fall asleep.

Submission is easy when your horny. Its not so easy when your body won’t cooperate. Its a bigger challenge to surrender when you aren’t at your physical best. But it isn’t always about me. Its about serving, no matter what. I’ve chosen to do so. I will always do my best to live up to my promise, even if I feel like shit!

Namaste,
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